I could be a decent person... a bad person. Everone does have a good an a bad side am I not right?

I don't like seeing people sad... nor mad... I might act like a ten year old kid but really I cover my true self.

People that expresses their feelings out loud... I intend to keep those emotions inside... layer after layer n; after layers... I am really a cheerful person no matter what?
The answer is... only people who truely know about me should know the answer. My friends do say... they look into my eyes... they find it cold... They see me crying... crying inside.

Sometimes people are afraid to admit love for another. Doesn't hurt to try giving it a shot?
Heck... I could admit loving someone but~ I'm too shy... too scared to say... Makes it worse if that person found someone already.
When that happens to me... I disappear... disappear...
I like seeing people happy... people that I successfully helped... I don't know why I even help people... makes me happy to see them happy... Don't know why... but it makes me sick...

How couldn't I be so obvious... that I had feelings for that person?... Maybe she knew... was waiting for me... I ran away from those feelings... I just kept running til I'm out of breathe.

I got mixed feelings in me... feelings that couldn't be said but not explained... My heart empty... my soul... dead... my body... hollo... my brain... drafted in a fantasy... that I can never have. Rage... anger... depressed... confused...

I make people happy... but why can't I make myself happy?... You see me laughing... you see me smile... did I really meant it... Was I faking it... was I?...

If people hits me... I don't hit back... I don't care for fighting... I don't care about defending myself... Why should I care...? I don't even know who I really am anymore... Am I being myself.... or being someone else?...

Give me power and I'll abuse it... when I wanted something to be perfect ends up wrong... ends up lossing someone in a day... in a night...

I'm lost... I'm lost... find me... I need someone who actually cares about my feelings... the feelings I have left in me...

I'm dead inside... I'm meaningless... I'm nothing... I'm just there... a bump on the path way to happiness... a Bump...

Imagen this being said Day an Night... 24/7... I can't take it anymore... any longer...

These are my feelings.... emptiness.